From May till November... 21st that day, it was hard for both of us....
This song I felt like it was meant for this theme that I'm having...
When somebody loved me, everything was beautiful
Every hour we spent together, lives within my heart
And when she was sad, I was there to dry her tears
And when she was happy, so was i, when she loved me.
Through the summer and the fall, we had each other, that was all
Just she and I together, like it was meant to be
And when she was lonely, I was there to comfort her
And I knew that she loved me.
So the years went by, I stayed the same
And she began to drift away, I was left alone
Still I waited for the day, when she’d say "i will always love you."
Lonely and forgotten, never thought she’d look my way,
She smiled at me and held me, just like she used to do,
Like she loved me, when she loved me
Playing music by the side, enjoying every single melody from the bottom of my broken shattered heart. All my emotions were released through the hole and the vibration of my string instrument, the guitar. Many passed by ignoring the fool that is playing by himself. All alone I was playing, with no one enjoying my music. Then a female passer stop by and listened to me play. She said to me, "are you sad?". I answered her, "how you know?" She said she just now. "Your play is really good and I enjoyed it alot". I never had anyone said those kind words to my play before. I thanked her for that and continue playing more beautiful melodies for her.
After I finished playing all my songs that I had inside of me. She asked me whether or not can we be friends. Soon we got along. I was having a relationship problem with my girlfriend, Michelle. She seemed so busy and didn't had time for me. I felt depressed. My birthday was closing in and Michelle broke off with me. Of all the days and times I had to be sad on my birthday. But the passer girl, wished me happy birthday when the clock stroke 12am on June the 30th. I was a little bit happy and better.
The girl's name was Chloe. She had a boyfriend that time. She told me she was having problems with him. Soon the boy betrayed her love and went for another girl. Chloe was sad and I was there to dry her tears. Comforting her, telling her that I too, am broken. We held on to each other's arms and walked on with our life.
Weeks passed by and our feelings towards each other grew. At first glanced I didn't had much feelings for her but she had strong feelings for me. She had alot of friends and love talking with them. That didn't matter to me much. I knew Chloe was falling for me very fast. Maybe because of the way how I talked to her? Because of the countless hours talking with each other? Because of the countless hours of songs I played for her? Maybe... but soon she asked me something.
Jackson. Will you be mine? Forever?
I was like confused. Blured. I asked her what?
Can you be my love?
Without a second thought I agree to her. That I am hers.
Our love began during August. Love with her was strong and true. Every single moment with her was so beautiful. Having someone be by myside all the time. I cherish those moments with her. I was really happy with her. Comforting each other. Making each other smile. Making each other laugh. Giving each other love. Between us it was wonderful. Those times I dont think both of us can ever forget it. No matter how much both of us try to.
Every single night before one of us sleep. We will tell each other that I love you. None of us will sleep until one said " I love you ". Only then can we have our sleep.
Chloe's big exam was coming and soon she was pressured and tensed up. I was always there to comfort her. To tell her not to worry. All the positive side. Everything nice to her. After her exam. Chloe received a job from school. Because of that... our time together was cutten short. We spent so little time together. She was always so tired. Always pressured. Always tensed. I feel so sad that she had to suffered through these.
Holiday came in. Soon we had a little bit more time with each other. Then soon she had to go back to her mother's place. Out of the blues her mother found out about our love. Chloe's mother force her, keep pressuring her to break off away our love. She was sad and confused. Our time together was cut so short...
Then one day, I dont know why I keep doubting her. I was so stupid. So foolish. I know she dont have but why do I keep doing it? Jackson you are so foolish. She is your love and you know she wont do such acts but yet you keep digging for a something that never existed.
Then she broke off with me due to the intense pressure and the lost of my faith towards her. That day November 23rd... I cried... For the first time in such a long time. I cried. Now my heart is empty. It was so used with her love and now its no more. For 3 days I was sad. Then afterwards I felt find and let her go. She never spoke to me again. I had dreams that she said she missed me and we were together. How I wished that dream was real. I know her mother doesnt agree to our love. I know she is sad. I know she is angry. I know she is tensed. I know she is pressured. Her mother doesnt want her to be with me but with another person that she chose for her. Yet after the break up, I tried to help her. By calling her friends to make sure she is alright. That her friends must be there to help her through everything.
Shu Juan I hope you are alright. Shu Juan you are always welcome back to my heart. You showed me true love from a human being. I love you... I wished we can be together again. I am waiting for the day you will return. But still I do not know whether or not it may came true.
I'm very emotional... My heart is very fragile... I am hard but easily broken when I gave my heart to someone... God help me by taking away these pain from me...
