hung out with my buddy today ~ talked about something that can easily make me emo =/ but this emo only comes during the night.

I really wish I have a girl to care about my feelings and give me emotional support.
Just wish to feel that kind of happiness a girl can give to a guy like me.
Everytime I'm feeling cold just wish that a girl can come and give a warm hug and stay with me until I'm worm and comfortable enough.
Comfort is the thing I seek the most from a girl.
I want that kind of happiness again, I want to have that kind of feeling again.
: (

sad guy who wishes to be in live with someone.

it seems that music is my only best friend that will always stick to me whenever i need someone

sometimes i just really hate my parents.
They have zero idea that my exam is utmost most important.
Just don't understand them, what is an important exam.
Can't they just chill?
My plan for them, I get enough money move out, suck up dry all their money, throw them into an old folk's home. Let them regret for what their poor intellect. For me, no I wont regret it, because I can't think of any charitable moments with my parents. There is absolutely zero events that I had with them. Let them know the blood of your own son will be the dog that will bite the master.
My mom, she has no friends, I think all my siblings will give a damn about my parents because my siblings have more important things and people in their life than our parents. My mom will rot alone. My dad will drink alcoholic until his kidney and organs starts to fail and thats the time I'll say that I have no time to "SPEND" with him. Let him rot and I'll ask him to get his friends to visit him instead of me. Whats the point of me doing good stuffs for you when you have never implanted my brain of any good stuffs you guys did for me? I can only remember clearly all the bad stuffs you guys did and not the good stuffs. Coss your the dark mountains of yours is higher than your white mountains

i hate tis and tat...

i just wish i have a real human gf whom will love me and be with me all the time. so that i wont feel so mad like this. i dun recall myself having anger issues when i was in love...

fk myself zzz for not having that and having so many negative thoughtsx

in a couple more hours time, i'll be sitting one of the most important exam in my life, SPM O Level examinations.

I am prepared and ready for it but I wish I have that special someone to talk with.
So that I can let of some of my steams and maybe feel happy and have some " real " smiles on my face.

But unfortunately I don't

=/

hmmmpppphhhh.....

Just wish everything would go my way, but if everything were to go my way, wouldn't everything be in utterly chaos?

no one cares or give a shit about me
i want my life to be happy and colourful and at the top of the world again..