Along with a dimmed orange night study lamp that I place it near and closed to the wall
Typing down these keystrokes at the brink of night. I couldn't stop but think of my future plans and crazy night sleeping emotions.
I always have a trouble to go to bed in the night, maybe because I kept thinking of wanting a love life? I just can't stand going to public places seeing so many couples snuggling tight together. This sight just pisses me off and maybe to other single guys and girls out there.
Looking at these lovely couples sitting together studying together in a happy mood makes me long for one. Makes me think of my bitter sweet past with all the colors in the rainbow that fills every tiny bits of space in my life.
I really missed that time. I'm just a normal every day average joe, who only wakes up and then survive for the day and come back home to my room sleeping.
Anyways I wish I can find a place which doesn't let me see these " kind " of people around. Maybe perhaps a good empty spacious place with less people and beautiful study scenery? That be good for me. Just only me, my books and the beautiful natural trees and rivers for me. Overlooking them through a glass window.
Haru haru or day by day, my days as a high school teenager is getting close to the end. Should I be happy for it ? Or be like tears flowing out of my eyes that I'm gonna missed everything in that crappy school. Time can only tell.
What else can I say... I see myself in the future living in a small apartment, going to work early in the morning and come back home late at night. For almost every single day. Pay a house cleaner to clean my house and clothes. Eat at the nearby home cooked restaurant that I entrust that can cook healthily... Maybe I'll live along and die alone =/ ?
Go to church every sunday finally ~ Running the family business until its a giant success but still what use to it =/ its just a place for me to feed my empty stomach, still its just a normal job of overseeing everything going smoothly and doing all the checklist from machinery to paper works of customers... figuring out new ideas that can help new customers and even contribution to the cleanliness of the world...
Sigh, sometimes I wish I can have someone's hand to hold onto forever. And I think its true that the saying of in this world, you will " know " alot of people and soon they will become the people that you " knew " off...
I wish I can have some to hold and cherish my fragile heart =/ which goes so unstable like a radioactive isotope. Lol why am i bringing in physics =3=
anyways, hope i can sleep and have my morning 5:30am walk
http://youtu.be/cU8Z4wV4Lqg
Haru haru or day by day, my days as a high school teenager is getting close to the end. Should I be happy for it ? Or be like tears flowing out of my eyes that I'm gonna missed everything in that crappy school. Time can only tell.
What else can I say... I see myself in the future living in a small apartment, going to work early in the morning and come back home late at night. For almost every single day. Pay a house cleaner to clean my house and clothes. Eat at the nearby home cooked restaurant that I entrust that can cook healthily... Maybe I'll live along and die alone =/ ?
Go to church every sunday finally ~ Running the family business until its a giant success but still what use to it =/ its just a place for me to feed my empty stomach, still its just a normal job of overseeing everything going smoothly and doing all the checklist from machinery to paper works of customers... figuring out new ideas that can help new customers and even contribution to the cleanliness of the world...
Sigh, sometimes I wish I can have someone's hand to hold onto forever. And I think its true that the saying of in this world, you will " know " alot of people and soon they will become the people that you " knew " off...
I wish I can have some to hold and cherish my fragile heart =/ which goes so unstable like a radioactive isotope. Lol why am i bringing in physics =3=
anyways, hope i can sleep and have my morning 5:30am walk
http://youtu.be/cU8Z4wV4Lqg
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