what a bumpy fun start with the year 2012 !

January it seems a very interesting head start month !

Seen a lot of weird and smart and interesting people in my workplace. Sold bunch of equipment and instruments. Feeling good being a capable salesman selling stuffs haha :D!

I just gotta further improve my english level for my SAT and TOEFL exam if I wanna continue my studies overseas in America. Sad case when I discovered that my english level capacity is extremely low compared to the standards there. Plus common sense and common knowledge, these two things which I'm still struggling to interpret into my lifestyle and the way I approach to things. In the SAT, all the questions are mainly based on CRITICAL THINKING. Which, the United States education wants to train really good thinking people rather than memorizing the entire textbook. I believe that the american education system wants students to UNDERSTAND rather than memorizing every line in the textbook and copying it in the exam which is very very wrong. And unfortunately, this is what going on in the Malaysian education system.

Common sense and common knowledge and also critical thinking, very very important soft skills that is needed if we want to step out in the outside world.

Topic change!

I've been spending a lot of time with this very very lovely and sweet girl. But, what but? I likey that her a lot :3 even though shes not everything I wanted but shes always there to talk with me. Therefore I wont have the feeling of loneliness anymore. And I like people hearing me play ^_^ Aaaaa what am I saying, to fall in love with someone its not all about the cover aspect, is all about the heart. So what is my heart telling me, " I need someone to comfort this fragile life of mine ", said Heart. Yar I'm too sensitive. I'm sensitive as in, people's word or action can sometimes travel deeply into my core. But I wont show it on my face, I just keep it and mourn over it so that I can make myself believe that I moved on and forget about the past.

I think having the chance to be in love again, I wont feel very much broken and fragile and dull anymore. It'll make me more energetic, I think. But yet again I dont know what the future holds for me. If I wont have the chance to be in love, so be it. I'll walk on the lonely road as ever. But if I do have the change to be in love, I'll cherish it in my heart.

wah lao eh =3= for the first time, a happy post hahahahahahaha :')

i like driving fastly and drive forever coss it takes off my mind from anything that im thinking... i wanna get myself hung over with alcohol so that i can sleep easily.... i just wanna go to work and come back home tired with alcohol... then sleep without thinking... just existing... repeat all these over and over again so that i wont feel anything

yey, no1 gives a shit about me

i want and wish to have real ppl caring about me : /

emo emo emo emo emoooo

it seems i think im gonna be single and alone for my young adulthood ~ maybe even until forever ~~~ well sucks for everything haizzzzzzz it be good to have a coming back home feeling but i dun~~~ its always tired, computer, music, bath, eat and sleep... nothing else... my life is just living for existence not for something, my life has nothing much in it.... its so empty

:'(

I hope my friend wont loose her eye sight... I will be so unforgiving of myself that I never reminded her not to rub/scratch her eyes... I have a feeling that part of her problem is my fault. Coss I do observe her a lot, she keep scratching her eyes when shes tired, I should've reminded her not to. But im the foolish and stupid one. The thought of scratching eye is okay to me but I never realise the true effect of it... God help my friend that after her surgery that she would be ok again :'(

Worried friend

there is this person whom i do not like. I helped that person a lot and spent and used a lot of resources to that person.

After such a long time, I think that person has abandoned and forgotten me.

Not even a message of how have you been?
Happy New Year! Merry Christmas !

I never received a single message from that person.

So I decided that I'm just going to keep quiet to that person until that person talks to me. For the mean time. I promised myself that I'm going to be less sad/emo and therefore not going to think a lot of bad stuffs.

If that person is treating me like this, so why should I still waste some more time on that person by thinking about it? I'm just going to move on and forget that ass