Do I have friends? I mean real, nice, good friends that will help you either in both good and bad situations. A friend to be there for your emotional needs. I don't think I have a true friend.n All of my friends are just normal friends. Acquaintance.
Its the same with accompaniment.
I long for a female life accompaniment. I wish for it. I wish I have a friend to be there for me whenever I need to. I wish I have a friend so that I can cry on her shoulder. I wish I have a friend that I can talk to. Play with. Laugh with. Emotional support. Opinions and comments for me. I wish I can have a girl like that in my life. But to face reality I dont think that would happen. The females today are just, well, not good. I dont know how to point it out. I think I'm going to be a bachelor for the rest of my life. Single and lonely.
Waking up from bed. Wishing that I have a lovely wife to see and love with. Having breakfast on the table for me. Making me happy. But actually, I would be waking up from bed, with a gloomy face like the pale gloomy lonely moon. Getting myself up and quickly bath and eat some biscuit or bread that I would always buy from the local market.
I would work lonely, getting scolded by people in the outside word. Boss pressuring me. Trying to get the fullness of me. Coworkers just minding their own business. No one would bother about others. The world is cruel and every men is for themselves.
After being exhausted from work. Normally an adult 40s would be going home with dinner served by their lovely wife but actually I would going home alone. So tired and exhausted that I just slept and forgot about dinner.
Living alone in my house. The only thing that makes me happy is just music. Guitar accompanying me through out my life. Never leaves me. Music never leaves me.
My life is just going to be alone. No one would care nor even bother. But why am I still so kind to others even though I know I wont get anything good in return? Nothing is worth it. I would only be happy for that short moment. But after awhile I would be normally, gloomy and sad and lonely. No one would care this person of me.
Life for me is just like that. If i can suicide I would've done it along time ago. But I love my God so much, that I would never do it.
I long for a female life accompaniment. I wish for it. I wish I have a friend to be there for me whenever I need to. I wish I have a friend so that I can cry on her shoulder. I wish I have a friend that I can talk to. Play with. Laugh with. Emotional support. Opinions and comments for me. I wish I can have a girl like that in my life. But to face reality I dont think that would happen. The females today are just, well, not good. I dont know how to point it out. I think I'm going to be a bachelor for the rest of my life. Single and lonely.
Waking up from bed. Wishing that I have a lovely wife to see and love with. Having breakfast on the table for me. Making me happy. But actually, I would be waking up from bed, with a gloomy face like the pale gloomy lonely moon. Getting myself up and quickly bath and eat some biscuit or bread that I would always buy from the local market.
I would work lonely, getting scolded by people in the outside word. Boss pressuring me. Trying to get the fullness of me. Coworkers just minding their own business. No one would bother about others. The world is cruel and every men is for themselves.
After being exhausted from work. Normally an adult 40s would be going home with dinner served by their lovely wife but actually I would going home alone. So tired and exhausted that I just slept and forgot about dinner.
Living alone in my house. The only thing that makes me happy is just music. Guitar accompanying me through out my life. Never leaves me. Music never leaves me.
My life is just going to be alone. No one would care nor even bother. But why am I still so kind to others even though I know I wont get anything good in return? Nothing is worth it. I would only be happy for that short moment. But after awhile I would be normally, gloomy and sad and lonely. No one would care this person of me.
Life for me is just like that. If i can suicide I would've done it along time ago. But I love my God so much, that I would never do it.
No comments:
Post a Comment